I have a secret private blog which I've not updated since Friday, 17th June 2011 and I hadn't looked at since... Well, possibly, Friday the 17th June, 2011. Tonight I opened it and started to read.
It's really strange going back to a blog you had largely forgotten about. Yet, at the same time, it's my favourite blog. I had more fun writing that one blog than any of my blogs. I guess it's because it was more of a real blog, I was completely myself among friends and it dealt with an interesting period. I wrote the blog for about two years and there are nearly 1,400 posts, most of which contain a cartoon or graphic. It covered the writing of about three or four projects and most of the work there I'd simply forgotten about.
Not all of it was particularly good. The blog is really as much a catalogue of my failure as it is my success. I can see now that I was desperate for success. I was also learning to draw and I was jumping between book ideas too rapidly and my energy wasn't matched by my skill with the pen. I was drawing too much too quickly and there's more failure there than there is success.
Yet, oddly, not all of my ideas were crap. It's just that I seemed to latch onto my worst ideas and see them through to the end.
Anyway, this is one of the oddities I found. A reader of the blog went on holiday and took this picture.
I'm as embarrassed today as I was the moment I saw it.
Which brings me to the reason for looking at the blog. I'm seriously thinking about 'going dark'. I gain nothing by putting all my work on show. I'm thinking about retiring back into a private realm where I can work and post things which I might later try to get published. I have two ideas that I'd like to try out but, obviously, not for public eyes. Yet I like getting feedback and, hopefully, some of you might enjoy watching me stumble about in the dark.
I'm not entirely sure if I'll do this (or how I'll do this) but should you be a regular reader and think you could stomach becoming a little closer to the daft things I do, then email me. If I have a few readers willing to follow me, I might consider giving this a try. I might just turn on this blog's registered users section. I might create a new blog here. I might simply invite you to the old private blog and let you see the 1,400 posts. Yet, part of me just wants to start afresh.
Anyway, that's my thought. Might or might not happen. I just feel that I need to change my routine.